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Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Currently
Daisy
By Brand New
You Stole
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“If you let me have my way I swear I’ll tear you apart.”

-Brand New



Every morning I open my eyes, I die a little.
A slow dulling of my senses.
The orange plastic bottle is empty.
Ground to tower, all systems down.
Fuck.
What was I doing?
The sink is speckled with little black spots; wait there’s reddish ones too.
I swear someone is behind me.
Shouldn’t I care?
Tower to ground, power failure in the reality thruster.
Why did I come in here?
Brush my teeth; take as many pills as possible.
Maybe some toast, too much work.
I can’t even remember her face.
Ground to tower, we have parasites in the memory compactor.
I’m standing on glass looking down at a wedding.
Shit….
Fucking blinds never keep all the sun out.
I just rest my head against the wall.
Cheap plaster job, fucking hurts.
Maybe I’ll just stay in bed today.
Blankly scan hundreds of facebook pages.
Read/watch/laugh at their pathetic lives.
A swirling pool of insecurities swallowing our society.
Noises, bangs, nothing.
I swear to God…
Ground to tower, We’re sensing some premeditation.
There’s nothing.
Just a platoon of cheap plaster jobs burrowing inside my head.
Why don’t you just move?
I’m slipping through the ground.
Just get through the next hour.
I don’t remember pulling up these sites?
Tower to ground, we have zero visibility.
I want to see the future.
I want to sleep forever.
Do you still think about me?
Ground to tower we have lost all visual and mental aid.
I don’t even bother eating.
I’m more content with sleep.
Tower to ground, 15 minutes till self-destruction.
Almost there, just a couple more minutes…
All their faces are red, skin is peeling too.
A decaying mess, a society of failed experiments.
Ground to tower, 5 minutes till detonation.
God’s deformed rats.
5, 4, 3, 2, 1….
Welcome to the Devil’s back yard.
I hear the punch is good.
Awake.


Monday, February 16, 2009

I don't want to go home alone tonight
I want someone to carry me
I need something to make my body right
I can't march to their beat, I am burning fast
Your sailing forever away, and I wish I knew you
But it's hard to see the front, when you're in dead last
It's the middle of the day, and I pray for sleep
Or something to help me escape this mess
I can't remember the last time I fell this deep
And you're far away, in a dreamless sleep
Can't remember the last time I felt right
I just pray that they won't haunt me anymore
Every night I end their cries
Every night on the floor
When will their questions end?
When will I burn them all away?
And If I cared enough maybe we could dance again
Forget our youth
Forget our memories
We will dance again with our love and our innocence
There will be no more bitterness
there will be no more graves
Only the sweet sound of our feet and our smiles
There will be no more voices calling us home
There will be no more pain
There will be no more miles
Just the sweet sound of our feet, and our innocent smiles


Saturday, January 17, 2009

Currently
No Disassemble
By Slow Runner
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Your across the room but you feel so close
Your eyes stare blankly but you see so much
But you don't notice me till it's too late
I can't stand in one place for too long
I wonder how much more of this i can take
I never said I was perfect
But then your beside me, my breathing speeds up and my brain slows down
Your swimming before me, in a room of people we don't know
Mocking my desires and haunting my thoughts
I pray that some day this will all make sense
And if you want to be alone, just let me know
Give me a couple years and I think i'll be fine
I just can't promise that you'll ever leave my mind
And if you can't just lie
I just want to be able to sleep one night without you in my dreams
I just need a surrounding blackness to rap myself in
I just need a couple days and then I'll be fine
I'll live inside a dream we once had
An epic fight for your affection
Or maybe that dream was just mine




Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Currently
August and Everything After
By Counting Crows
Time and Time Again
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Silence, when will you leave me?

I’ve been banging my head against a wall all day

And in my moment of need you leave

Will she forget me?

Let our voices shake and fade

Let the light darken into nothingness

Maybe then she’ll come out of the shade

Can you not see me?

I feel invisible when you’re around

My head spins with the love you can’t see

My voice has contracted into my brain

My thoughts collide with regret and now I’m lost

Solving problems I’ve created in vein

I can’t stop looking at you, your perfect

The Mona Lisa of my life, and you’ll never know

Hidden behind veils and twisted stairs

Your eyes half closed pretending no one cares

You wouldn’t believe me even if I told you

My self dug grave grows bigger every day

Soon they’ll be enough room for my regret and doubt

Some things you should just let be

Like my awkward embrace and sad smile

Maybe you can accept me in the end

Or maybe I’ll just keep digging this grave


Friday, July 25, 2008

Currently Listening
Psychocandy
By The Jesus and Mary Chain
Just Like Honey
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Every night feels lonelier than the next.
Sleep closer, drink more wine.
Every intruder feels like a special guest.
More wine, burry yourself in memories.
Fall asleep to the sound of dreams burning.
Are you a dream?



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